Every time I think about 2014, something keeps creeping it’s way into my head. Last year, I was following my joy. Ignoring words like “SEO relevancy” and “readership” and following my happy. The same little voice that came up with that crazy idea is uttering a new word and that word is courage. Eek!
As a natural introvert, courage means sharing more, trying more and making more. It means staying away from the lull of safe. There are secret things I want to get better and try out and this year I’m diving in.
For one, there is an essay I’ve been trying to write for 7 months and thinking about writing for over a year. It’s about quilting and it’s also not at all about quilting. I’ve written five drafts and shown it to no one but my husband. I hate it so much. I hate it so much that I put it aside and deem it awful. Thing is, I also love it so I keep coming back to it.
I have secret little dreams about submitting it but the research on doing that makes me freeze up; terrified and overwhelmed by the competition. My act of courage was to sign up for a year-long online writing course with the amazing Alice Bradley. I hope it doesn’t take me a year to write this short essay but writing practice and prompts are what I need to unstick myself. I hope improving my writing will also bring more of my stories to this little blog.
I’m also following along with a photography course (as well as I can by gleaning info from this free college syllabus). I am perpetually disappointed in my photos, they never quite capture the spirit of what I’m experiencing. And, I have a fancy camera, got it for my birthday, and I want to use it to it’s fullest potential. I’ve got no excuses. Gonna muster up that courage to experiment, take some pictures and see what happens! I might even share some of my photos here. You know, if I can move to Courage Stage 2.
Of course, the calendar is filing up with sewing classes, pattern tours and blog hops. Many of them new to me. I’ve got sewing projects and ideas galore, I am counting on courage to guide me toward tinkering on those without fear of failing. I am also banking on courage helping me share the failures because it isn’t all unicorns and rainbows at my cutting table…know what I mean?
I’m giggly-level excited, and mildly daunted, by all of it. What you got for 2014? Want to join me for this leap into courageous? Let’s be fierce together.